Life. It’s been happening here. Lots of it. God is so good. I haven’t meant to leave the blog. I rarely ever intend to leave it for so long. But there are times that I just need to.
I’m sorry for being absent.
Why apologize to my readers? Because I have made promises. Promises about posts and helpful information. They were are meant well and really, I do intend to keep what I say.
I have learned is I need to stop making promises. At least some of them.
Learning to Choose the Best
Choosing the best is not “just stop making promises”. But stop saying “I will do that” ” I can do that” or “Sure, let me do that for you” “Let me help you” or “I have this great idea!” etc.
I know that loving people and serving are not bad things. It almost hurts to write that they have been an issue in my life. In reality, it has probably been pride and fear or favor of man that I have sought more than God’s perfect will. Here’s the thing: when I keep saying Yes to all the things (and people) that want my help, attention, or even those times I offer unsolicited help (Yeah, I do that pretty often too!), I blow past the best and burn out big time.
The best is what is most important. Choosing the best means taking time to find out what the best is. Listening to the Lord, waiting for Him, and moving forward when and as He leads.
So, I have not been led to write. Which means writing would not have been the best. I have even tried, and failed, and had yuck in my heart when I have gone to type. I have also learned that more of the blog has been about me (my needs) then I ever realized before. I have wrestled with pride a lot.
I have also realized that my highest calling has been put on hold to often for the sake of helping others. All good things, yes. But… but… it is never good to make good things priorities over the best and highest things.
Lately my time has been well spent, for the most part. And I am still very much working with the Lord on how I need to keep tweaking my days. What I need to let go, say no to, and what to keep on my plate.
Knowing Me In Him
God has been revealing some pretty awesome things these past few months as I have spent a lot of time with Him. I have been praying like never before, crying out even, and asking Him to reveal what His plan is for my life, our children, and my marriage. How I am to be here in the world and who I am in Him.
Finding out who He made me to be has been a key part of this journey.
This may seem foolish to some of you. But realize we are all different and please do not condemn those of us who are learning who we are still.
How has this taken place? Here is one way:
It was a joy and a stretch for me to finally listen to this set of emails from Dressing Your Truth. (I have only done the free course so far) They are a company dedicated to helping you look your best, not conforming to fashion standards. These emails have changed my life!
I am not telling you about them for money. I am not an affiliate. I just want to share because their information has been incredibly helpful to me. In fact, I am still working on finishing up the emails. But what the first 5 have done so far is they have helped set me free to embrace me. AND I haven’t even found out how I should be dressing yet. 🙂
These email videos have revealed to me:
- Things that I have stifled to be “more” for others
- Being me is so very important
- The things I have fought against are gifts and strengths
- My uniqueness is very, very good
The personality parts of me that I have actually been told are wrong are not. That’s not news to anyone, even me. Embracing who God made me to be more fully is so very freeing. I have even seen my children and husband in these emails. The good part? I can appreciate and value them and their ways so much more.
Some things I have known about me but been ashamed of:
- my organizing skill
- my many, many, many ideas
- my outgoing personality
- my loud laughing
- my excitement
- and many more…
I have been ashamed of these and have often felt that they were the worst part of me. They never have been. Yet, some of these strengths can be a problem if they are not handle in a healthy way.
For example, I am very much an *ideas* person. (You probably knew that already.) Oh my! If you even had a glimpse of what goes on in my head you would be amazed. I have so many, many, ideas and they are very good. Not patting myself on the back, the truth is they are good ideas.
However, there is no way that one person in this life could ever fulfill half of the ideas that I have. The Lord knows I have tried!
With that said, I am learning embracing who I am, my ideas and all, is healthy and good. I am valuing how God made me. It also keeps my heart and mind in check more. Who knew?
I now say with confidence. “WOW! That’s a great idea!”and move on realizing that with the time, energy, and calling I have, that idea may never happen. That’s ok. In fact, it’s even good. I can set the idea aside and see how the Lord may bring it about in His time or never.
For so long I felt that if I had a “great” idea, I had to jump on it because life is short and well, I just was totally excited about my awesome idea. But then I would fizzle. My follow through can definitely dwindle at times. Yet, when I know that I know it is the Lord, my follow through can be a force to be reckoned with.
Now I see what ideas I have that are good. I pray about how they fit within the scope of my calling. Since I know what’s best, I have more energy and focus to follow through. And my follow through becomes consistent and strong.
It’s not easy. It’s not. But I press on. I often desire to go with the next great idea, yet I know I must finish the race (or races) the Lord has set before me. And putting the mass amounts of energy I can have into the best, will make the mark in this life that God has designed.
Back on Track (or a track)
You will see new posts coming to the blog. I actually have been writing for other blogs and have yet to share them here. I owe my friend Sarah Mae and you my review post on the new book Longing For Paris. The books was profound in many ways.
Even working on my school to honor my commitment to myself. Making cookies for my man and snuggling with him at night. Going to the park with my girls and swinging and laughing with them.
All good things, the best things even. Take place over blogging… they have to.
So with the above written you will now understand why I will take times off without notice. My life is not my own. I need to be sensitive the to moves of the Lord and His ways and be sure that the best is what I put my energy into. When blogging is the best, then it will be what I will do.
Blessings and Love to You Friends! Be sure to seek the Lord and make the time for the Best 🙂 You’re worth it!